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It's 16Nov!
After enjoying 3days holiday,
i realised my Ielts result is coming out.
before going for class at 10.30am
i decided to check results online
it's a disappointing score...
i really dont know what to do for UCAS

Then i posted a status on FB
at that moment,i really think that
(how poor am i?==)
Thanks to everyone who showed concern
I really appreciate =D
(i manage to cheer up within 24hours,haha)
and lots of advice (to retake)
anyway it's my problem..
stubborn? or... 
sometimes i'm just a bit self-centered
and i have my way of thinking
for me,English test is nothing to prepare
it tested our level..
many of my college mates just walked in and test,w/o studying 
8.0 is what they got
so,that's my level..
for so many years i studied english
and that's my score!
even how much time i retake,it wont change much
the only thing i cannot accept is speaking,5.5!
if i got 6.5 for that,my overall band still the same(6.5)..
but it just too ugly:(

no matter how,i still have to think a solution for UCAS
then i found out most of the uni in UK accept 1119
"they require 1119 C6 or above
but Ielts 7.0 above"
isnt it very stupid if i submit my ielts result?
idk they overestimated the level of spm 
or they would still ask us to join english class in UK if we use 1119 B4 result
anyway submitting ielts result is too risk
1st impression might be spoiled
used RM590 as an experience,take for nothing
maybe SPM1119 is ady enough
but i know i have to face my "brain stuck" problem during speaking test
if i manage to solve it, my future pace for interview would be smooth

I choose not to retake,
cz i dont want to go under the stress again
the time check==
i just simply hate test!
time consuming..how can i not careless,not brain stuck?
anyway,how hopeless am I, 
I would still continue using english
it's a beautiful language~ 
the Vampire Diaries is awesome xD
and i dont like typing chinese words
that's why chinese input keyboard doesnt exist in my mobile phone,never... 

Hopefully i wont disappoint me(or i wont disappoint it?) one day in the future...
resuscitation
just like cantonese 
took some years,and suddenly able to speak and understand xD

迷茫

无所事事、看电视。
考完trial，放了4天假，
as in doing nothing for 4days..
收拾心情后，
一放学回家就准备IELTS
虽然那个星期超多小考
我只做road to IELTS online
（我就是对电子教学比较有兴趣！）
3/11考完IELTS
对自己的speaking很失望
我不敢想，却很期待成绩出炉
申请UCAS一切就绪，只欠东风（IELTS成绩）
如果不好，我该怎么办==

那天过后，我就懒惰到了极点
再也没有在家读书的习惯了
一到家，就不知道该做什么，然后就开电视
没有戏看就看综艺节目
（为什么雷霆扫毒要大结局??!!没好戏看很sien）

recently...
FM班上的同学都很忙，除了我
好像只有我在trial之前做完M3功课
没办法，我的性格就是“不做完习题不进考场”
即使我skip了很多题，还是算做完了xD
因此也牺牲了复习physics的时间
（后果非常严重）
不懂是不是因为这样
全班只有我的分数高过50（77%）
隔壁班最低分都有50++,还有2个满分==
太可悲了
我们班竟然一个A的代表都没有
多希望老师可以加我那4分，至少我们班不会死得那么难看
人家全班pass,我们4个人pass
我的答案明明就对，带物理公式有问题么?
最多讲我跳步骤啦!给我0分?!!
正当我对lecturer严重不爽的时候
我去check forecast result
他竟然给了我A* O.O
我非常感谢他的信任
可是他的教学方法。。。
我真的只好靠自己加倍努力来达到predicted 的A*了

至于physics,
他狠狠地给了我B
本来还C tim
haiz!真的很无助TT
lecturer不是不好，是我跟他channel不同
我无法了解他的说法
不清不楚的
很想找补习老师
又不知道谁酱得空，
把unit2和unit4重新教我一遍...
JLO要出国了，等他回来也只剩几天的课
这样就去考试，我死定了...

幸好，econs老师肯给我A
她应该是看在我unit1&2的分上
认为我有机会拿A
其实我只是刚刚好80
但是，为了申请UK，HK，
最好要有3个A
还好她看得起我
不过我最该感谢的是Jia Shen
如果不是他的悉心教导，
星期六回学校给我和Emily补习
我的unit2不可能那么高分
大家都刮目相看xD
我作答时也比较有信心，time management improved=)
他教得非常仔细，所以我的concept较强
因为他重复又重复，不知不觉就印在我脑海里了
不用怎样读，吹水就对了，哈哈！
Unit3读到要死还是那个样
12月要攻unit3了
很多senior都是score unit2,fail unit3
然后retake
虽然这很正常，我却偏偏不想follow他们
老实说，我不允许自己retake
(我当edexcel就像统考，一次定生死）

今天得知forecast  result后还蛮开心的
A*A*AB
可是，我和hannah的想法一样
JLO给我们physics B
令我们变得不想听课，不想再put effort
我严重到甚至想drop掉
多点时间focus其他的不是更好吗？

predicted A是一种很神奇的动力
至少我今天不会无所事事了
大家在忙明天deadline的Mechanics3
我就开始FP1 or Econs homework
至于physics==
他下个星期又不在，
我对physics的热情又严重被消灭
算了吧~
除了无助，还是无助...

下星期一就是高中舞会xD
希望能够和很多朋友相聚
平时gathering都办不成的lol
我应该skip Econs 吗？
research project很有新鲜感叻，
不想错过，又怕赶不及去prom
argh!!!!!